jealousy
January 10, 2009
My best friend is getting married and she is pregnant! 12 weeks. I am so jealous. How terrible of me to feel like that. Of course I am happy for her because she has been alone for so long and finally met a really, really nice man and so deserves to be happy. More accurate is to say that I am desperate to be pregnant again and, in a really twisted way, it is easier to bear it if you can commiserate with someone. I feel disgusted with myself for feeling like that. But I do. I hope she will never find out.
