another set back

The nurse called me back two days later with a donor. Other than his hair and eye color, height and profession I don’t know anything about him and will never know more unless my child wants to find out. I don’t worry about it really. I actually don’t think about the donor at all. It’s almost like he doesn’t matter. This will be my child only.

Next steps: When my next period starts I am to call the clinic and make an appointment for day 11 of my cycle. They will take a scan and if the leading follicle is at least 18mm they will do the insemination. Yeah! I asked if we could do it today. Today was day 11 of my cycle. I could come over any time. What was I thinking? Of course nothing ever gets done that quickly. No, I would have to wait another month.  I wonder if sometimes they think about what they say to their patience and if they do, why don’t they live by it?  ”Your fertility drops dramatically every 6 months once you are over 40″ . Thanks, the entire process from seeing my GP until now has already taken 5 months.  By the time they do the insemination it will be 6.

impatience

I missed the call from the fertility unit today. They left a message that they wanted to schedule a time for me to come in and see the phychologist. By the time I could call back the only person who can make appointments had left until next Tuesday. Nobody else could make an appointment I was told. It’s hard to accept that but at least if I can’t make an appointment noboldy else can. I am running out of time! More patience needed.

bureaucracy

Haven’t heard anything from the fertility unit so decided to ring them and politely ask where the hang up is. It turned out they haven’t received the referral. Turned out my GP didn’t send the referral! She forgot and then left on holidays. I am ovulating for for the second time now since my miscarriage. Two months wasted because of bureaucracy!  The consultation date with the fertility clinic is on the 26th of January, they don’t have any earlier dates but offered I could call every week to check if anyone had cancelled their appointment. You bet I’ll call.

Happy Christmas. All I want next year is a baby.